"Whatever Happens...Don't Let go of my hand"-MJ<3

Ok so anybody who knows me (toni) knows my obsession..or love for Michael Joseph Jackson.
&& no..its not cause he's dead..I've been in love with him since [forever]! There's no exaggeration going on here! I've been wanting to blog about this..but couldn't find the words..or..emotions..or w/e idk how to explain how i feel about it! But i would much rather explain why Michael has always been an impact on my life! I remember when I was little..cant remember which birthday but i was like..4! For my main gift i got the MICHAEL JACKSON GREATEST HITS-HISTORY video. && I can remember listenin to it all day...and just makin it a goal to learn every word to every song! & i did..& for some reason "black or white" hit home for me..i think cause im mixed lol! && "Heal the World" was my favorite song b/c it was about Change! & there weren't many other singers out then making music like that. Remember i was like 4 so anything different caught my attention! From then on..even through the rumors I stuck by Michael Jacksons side..not for a second did i believe anything that was ever said..or believed about him! I promise you..til this day it pisses me off even when people joke about it...ask crist steele lol he calls me "wacko jacko" jus to piss me off. Its kinda weird..but he was kinda like family to me..thats how much i loved him...&& still do of course! It's pretty amazing how through music somebody can touch your heart & attach themselves to you....and not even know you! Growing up I've had 2 idols in music..Michael Jackson && Alicia Keys..& on the MICHAEL JACKSON GREATEST HITS tape i had..i use to see ppl at his concerts passing out...and crying...and im almost CERTAIN..i would be one of those people!..smh....So..I jus had to get that outta my system. MJ will always live in my heart && in my stereo! He's the greatest & most passionate musician (in my opinion) ever...so Long Live The King!
xoxo Mj xoxo

Toni && Camille Take On Myrtle Beach 2009

Our first day @ Myrtle Beach [sept 11,2009]! Yes...its a shame..we hopped out the car & went straight to the ocean lol..beach bums! I aint gonna lie..we all slept most that day =]

On Sat. nite me & camille took a LONG walk on the beach && u know wat we talked about! Boys..of course..smh! & we realized that..we dont need to settle for less! & we deserve that "movie" type of love. && you can say it dont exists...but trust me...it does. There's nothin wrong with doin sweet things for your girlfriends...its the little things that keeps tha girls going! We just talked about how amazing things could be! & we are the type of girls who keep the faith alive... =]
Those long talks get me through some rough times..thanks camille! xoxo

Ha...well Camille thinks it's so hilarious to just "snap" pictures...& this is the outcome of that! not so pretty..lol but w/e..i dont remember what we did on this day...this might have been the day we went gift shopping for all of our friends..and i had swollen eyes..ha i think thats why i had that look on my face..smh!! If anything goes wrong...it happens to me! oh && i forgot to mention we sipped pena colada's everday (virgin ones of course)

Gotta even out our tans..we were KNOCKED Out on the beach..til some white boys walked by talkin about how naive tha 2010 seniors are this year..lol w/e! Then we woke up and went up to our condo..and went Back to sleep....doesnt it jus look so relaxing! sighhh....i wanna go back

Look at this diva thinkin she is So cute (which she is lol)!!! I told camille that she would go to the beach the color of Caramel..and leave the color of Dark Chocolate [lol...jk..she aint that dark...the pic jus messed up haha] i love you!

I wanna thank the Steele family for inviting me on there family trip minus Crist-ina..lol Its much appreciated && i love them all just as if they were my own. xoxo

Tha cutest group of people around!!

Me, JBoogie,Kass,Camille,Bashard, Jadarious (and Catrice took the picture)

Catrice, Me, Camille, & Kassidy!

Well this was one of the funnest days! We all chilled and jus enjoyed each others company. We played some games...and we all kinda got to know each other (if we didnt already).We got to tell each other some truths (good & bad) and it felt good i guess haha. I think those are the best kind of moments. When you aren't really DOING anything, but we still have the best times. I think this group is gonna do big things :) except it was missing Kevin and Tamar!

I love all of ya'll!!

In tha Room of ToniLinae <3

So some people say that you can really get to know a girl by looking at her room soooo i decided to explain my (cluttered) room to you guys! sooo here it goes...

so here is my bed! & yea its never made up b/c i feel that its pointless to make up a bed when i lay in it half of the day! lol...i sleep under a buttload of covers..well like 2 sheets and 2 comforters! haha! umm on my lil table there...its got a white board with scriptures (my nightly inspiration) & its got a zebra lamp...and a picture of me and one of my best friends Minka.

ok so ignore tha bed and the lamp..and on my walls are pictures of the children i worked with in '08-'09! (they're autistic) and i also have some of my baptism cards around that area. On the other little table i have pictures of my nieces...and i dont think u can see it that well but i also have my shower stuff (shampoo....etc) & my mirror is covered with my bookbag and in front of it is my school stuff! & yes i have dirty clothes on the floor but only cuz tonight is my laundry night and i put my clothes in piles lol!!

ha this is my my first dresser! it has a BUNCH of stuff on it..it has a lot of zebra things that people have bought me..u cant see them tho! & of course it has my stereo on it..and a bunch of pictures on the mirror. The big pictures on my wall are from mazday.com the one on the right is a picture of paradise..and the one on the left is a picture of noah's ark!! i love those pictures sooo much. xoxo

And this is my last dresser! and my t.v. of course! & a pile of my white clothes waiting to be bleached lol! umm beside of my dresser is a little bookshelf! since my family aint in the truth i have to have mine in my room LOL!! Above that is my fish. Her name is "baby" and she has been with me for about 2-3 years now! She's a trooper.

This here is my baby Delilah! She sleeps with me everynight!! (the dog..not the teddy bear). Im determined to bring her with me when i move out..but my mama is determined NOT to let me lol. She completes my room



Well thats my room...and it sucks cause its pretty small..and i have a lot of stuff in there LOL!! But whatever...i love my room. xoxo

10 ways to make a girl go crazy for you!!!

1.Buy her flowers!!!-o.m.g so perfect

2.Kiss her places other than her lips. ex: cheek, forhead etc.

3.Text or call her just to say "i love you"

4.Watch her favorite movie.

5.Compliment her (beautiful, gorgeous,...)

6. LOOK INTO HER EYES!!

7.Forget the "mancode" and show her ur tru feelings!

8. Call her about your problems, it makes her feel like ya'll really are best friends.

9.Honesty is the best policy

10. Listen to when she's sad, mad, happy, excited, w/e it is jus listen to her and NEVER make her feel like her feelings are stupid!!

P.S. i Love you....

Lets just say, this is the best movie EVER!! So romantic. We could watch this over and over!
xoxo

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